I stare into my mirror. He's still there...what an idiot! Sitting right on my bumper. I'm driving at 50mph and he's so close I can't even see his registration. He can't overtake me, but the limit of the road is 50.
Up ahead the limit is unrestricted, you can easily drive it as 70/80 mph.
I glance in my mirror again and curse under my breath.
I slow right down, there is nobody behind him. 40mph....30 mph....he's still there 20....I'm hoping that he takes the hint as I change into 2nd gear....15.....
He really hasnt taken the hint, him in his poser 4x4 with 2 kids in the back..
So we crawl along at 15 mph for a good 5 minutes at least, with him still sitting there right up my backside.
Eventually he takes the hint and backs off....
My adrenaline was going for a bit, I thought that there'd be a road rage incident at the next junction, but there wasn't....and I did get such a sence of power.
Tuesday 17 February 2009
Sunday 15 February 2009
Paddling across The Sound
I glance over my shoulder and fix the image in my head…where I don’t want to be.
Then I look across to the eddy forming behind the lighthouse (the building that isn’t a house and has no light). I face into the flow and making sure my nose doesn’t stick in the water or that I’m leaning too far back to send me backwards into the chaotic breaking waves, I pick the wave and glide down its ever changing face onto the next wave, surfing and ferry gliding across the funny water.
…and as I find my line a little bit wrong, and glance again at the messy waves breaking behind me, a surge of adrenaline curses my veins…and in that moment, that rush, I don’t care about the world.
I don’t care about all the complications in my life, the things that make me sad when I stop and think.
I don’t think about the rumours that are flying round.
I don’t care for the people who gossip with no regard for those it effects.
I don’t care….
I think about where I am and where I need to be, I’m totally focused on my line to the next safe haven….and with the cries of seals echoing around its impossible not to appreciate the beauty of life… this is what life is all about.
Maybe I can pat myself on the back and say, I did well today, maybe I can afford myself a compliment, normally I would say it was a good day considering I’m a crap paddler. But today was a good day and I paddled well.
Then I look across to the eddy forming behind the lighthouse (the building that isn’t a house and has no light). I face into the flow and making sure my nose doesn’t stick in the water or that I’m leaning too far back to send me backwards into the chaotic breaking waves, I pick the wave and glide down its ever changing face onto the next wave, surfing and ferry gliding across the funny water.
…and as I find my line a little bit wrong, and glance again at the messy waves breaking behind me, a surge of adrenaline curses my veins…and in that moment, that rush, I don’t care about the world.
I don’t care about all the complications in my life, the things that make me sad when I stop and think.
I don’t think about the rumours that are flying round.
I don’t care for the people who gossip with no regard for those it effects.
I don’t care….
I think about where I am and where I need to be, I’m totally focused on my line to the next safe haven….and with the cries of seals echoing around its impossible not to appreciate the beauty of life… this is what life is all about.
Maybe I can pat myself on the back and say, I did well today, maybe I can afford myself a compliment, normally I would say it was a good day considering I’m a crap paddler. But today was a good day and I paddled well.
Friday 13 February 2009
Just like moderating playtime
The Friday feeling is meant to be one of relief...weeks over, end of. Relax...
It's a sad state of affairs I feel when I am actually happier at school than I am at "home"...certainly not something I experienced as a child!
I actually feel like i'm engulfed in a cloud of depression...when I LEAVE work!!!!
"Home" in the present context being a small room on the 3rd floor of a B&B, which is what I have been calling "home" since Christmas.
Living with people who have little respect for anyone else is killing me;
People who bang around in rooms and shout out of windows at gone 01:30 am!...as I lie there thinking...i'll be IN work in 7 hours !!!
People who role in at 4:30 am on a weekend making the most noise humanly possible, soo drunk they can't even get up the stairs...pathetic!
People who play with their food at dinner, spread it round the plate, have spoon fights, put salt and pepper in drinks....I mean seriously!
It makes my kids at school look well behaved.
Role on another weekened of escaping by playing in the sea or going into the hills...the only saviour of my sanity!
It's a sad state of affairs I feel when I am actually happier at school than I am at "home"...certainly not something I experienced as a child!
I actually feel like i'm engulfed in a cloud of depression...when I LEAVE work!!!!
"Home" in the present context being a small room on the 3rd floor of a B&B, which is what I have been calling "home" since Christmas.
Living with people who have little respect for anyone else is killing me;
People who bang around in rooms and shout out of windows at gone 01:30 am!...as I lie there thinking...i'll be IN work in 7 hours !!!
People who role in at 4:30 am on a weekend making the most noise humanly possible, soo drunk they can't even get up the stairs...pathetic!
People who play with their food at dinner, spread it round the plate, have spoon fights, put salt and pepper in drinks....I mean seriously!
It makes my kids at school look well behaved.
Role on another weekened of escaping by playing in the sea or going into the hills...the only saviour of my sanity!
Thursday 12 February 2009
Broken Ankle...
This is my old blog which I started when I broke myself in a climbing accident (actually a falling accident) in North Wales in June 2008.
http://happykat86.blogspot.com/
I started it because I was bored and stuck in the house, it got some fairly gross pictures too if you want to see what an ankle looks like when you partially dislocate it and break your foot and ankle, and spend 5 hours getting to medical care.
http://happykat86.blogspot.com/
I started it because I was bored and stuck in the house, it got some fairly gross pictures too if you want to see what an ankle looks like when you partially dislocate it and break your foot and ankle, and spend 5 hours getting to medical care.
Comedy factor
I was in a year 12 lesson yesterday and they were on the computers doing some research on coastal features. One of the lads had an awesome picture of a beach with gorgeous blue sea on his screen, to which he exclaimed.
"Miss! Doesn't that look so erotic...exotic!"
I've never heard someone correct themself so quickly, and i'm sure I haven't seen anyone turn quiet soo beetroot coloured in a while. The girls next to him where winding him up a little after that.
Small things amuse me...
"Miss! Doesn't that look so erotic...exotic!"
I've never heard someone correct themself so quickly, and i'm sure I haven't seen anyone turn quiet soo beetroot coloured in a while. The girls next to him where winding him up a little after that.
Small things amuse me...
Saturday 7 February 2009
127 things about me
1)I lived in the same house for 18 years.
2) But have lived in 7 different houses/flats in 4 different regions in the past 5 years.
3) I spend my free time being active outdoors.
4) I have a mum, dad and brother.
5) I have a cat (at my parents house) who always gets in fights.
6) Our cat adopted us as a tiny kitten when he turned up on our doorstep bedraggled, flea and tick ridden just before Christmas 2002.
7) Dad got the cat fumigated at the vets and he’s now cute and cuddly.
8) My cat likes snuggling up between boobs and kneading them, there is something wrong about that!
9) My brother has moved out into his own house and we have nothing in common, except for being related.
10) I swum in a swimming club for 6 years.
11) I love driving...so maybe I have one other thing in common with my brother.
12) I was underweight when I was in college because I was paranoid I was overweight.
13) I have skiied down a mountain, drunk, holding a flaming torch.
14) I spend my evenings writing lesson plans and marking work.
15) The Isle of Man will always have a special place in my heart.
16) I'm not a morning person.
17) I don't like having lie in's past 10:30am.
18) I used to go horse riding, play piano and guitar, all of which I liked, non of which I was very good at.
19) I have been kayaking for 10 years and first paddled a kayak when I was 5, but you wouldn't think so.
20) I have been climbing for 5 years but I’m scared of falling.
21) I went to an all girls secondary modern school and hated it.
22) I am now training to be a teacher.
23) I was very shy as a kid and I still can be. I have to make myself confident.
24) I haven't had a hangover this year.
25) I want to teach first aid.
26)...but my main experiences are with breaking and dealing with myself.
27) My birth sign is Aries
28) I was born in 1986.
29) I am proud of getting myself off a mountain with a broken ankle (without mountain rescue- and only my climbing buddy).
30) Even if it did take 3 hours to decend 800 metres.
31) I studied Geology at AS Level.
32) I also went to AS Level Chemistry lessons because I wanted to learn but I wasn’t bright enough to do the exams.
33) I did AS Level Fine art for the first term until I realized I wasn’t very fine at it.
34) I studied Biology, Psychology, General Studies and Geography at A Level.
35) I would never give up climbing.
36) I love traveling.
37) I went to college in Birkenhead!
38) I know how to work the British rail system to get the cheapest fare.
39) I want an ex ambulance turned into a camper as my first vehicle.
40) I love taking photos but I need a better camera.
41) I am single and have been for 2 years.
42) I drink real ale (usually under 5%) red wine or rose.
43) I like Jennings Cumberland best. I don’t like dark Ale.
44) I don’t drink shots as I don’t like feeling drunk that quickly and don’t like paying for things I don’t like.
45) I am also partial to a bottle of corona (or sol) with lime on a warm summers evening.
46) I can't drink coctails with brilliant blue in because they make me have serious breathing issues.
47) The most beautiful place that I have ever been to is probably New Zealand.
48) ...but I was absolutly messmerised by how stunning Scotland was when I was walking there in Winter.
49) ...the Lake District also holds a special place in my heart.
50) I did a degree in Geography and got a 2.1
51) I have never lived in a city and never intend to.
52) I am currently sitting on a pile of student debt.
53) A lot of which I spent on traveling or buying climbing/kayaking/walking kit and of course alcohol and partying.
54) I worked as a lifeguard and a climbing instructor in my 2nd and 3rd year of uni.
55) I worked way too many hours at uni...but I also partied too much.
56) I am a slow reader and like reading books with pictures in.
57) I read non fiction or biographies.
58) I have a really bad short term memory and always have done.
59) I can touch my nose with my tongue.
60)I am still shocked that it cost me £3.20 for a small glass of blackcurrent and lemonade in a club last night....dearer than booze.
61) I can fit 4 5ps in my bellie button.
62) I have a really bad short term memory.
63) The only sport I watch on TV is rugby or extreme sport.
64) I hate beach holidays….I like being active; walking, climbing, kayaking, scuba diving, exploring and seeing the local culture…
65) I was brought up as Christian but now I don’t believe in God.
66) I can’t stand Big Brother.
67) I drink a lot of water every day.
68) I give blood.
69) I have hitch hiked in the Welsh Valleys and in New Zealand.
70) I could kayak before I could swim.
71) I did a sky dive when I was 17 to raise money for the Samaritans.
72) I hate spiders.
73) I used to volunteer as a "listener" for Samaritans.
74) I am 22
75) I go caving and there are spiders in caves, some of which are huge and millimeters from my face.
76) I get so scared it makes me feel sick and I scream a lot (when I am with friends, not clients)…but I love caving too much that I just have to deal with my fears.
77) I don’t own a matching pair of socks.
78) Every sport I do scares me to some degree, every sport makes me face my fears.
79) As a child I used to faint at the sight of my own blood and consequently have seen the inside of a lot of first aid rooms in public places.
80) I drink tea with the tiniest bit of milk and no sugar.
81) I’m scared of flying (possibly because I’m scared of falling) but I love traveling so just have to deal with it.
82) I love flying in helicopters which are probably aircraft most likely to fall out of the sky.
83) I can’t remember the last time I did any ironing.
84) I sing all the time, but alot more when I'm scared.
85) My colleagues used to say, my singing voice sounds like a cat being strangled.
86) I can't function without having breakfast.
87) I work in the Oxfam charity shop when I am home at my parents.
88) I broke 3 fingers when I trapped them between two railway sleepers (long story).
89) I have never done a bungee jump and never intend to.
90) I was 2 years old before I took my first steps.
91) I was 18 months old before I said my first string of words "Ooo it's hot!"
92) I climbed Moel Famau when I was 3 (with my parents).
93) I can’t stand milk, so have orange juice on my cereal.
94) My favorite colour is blue.
95) The most scared I have ever been was during the coasteering epic with work last year when I actually thought my friend/collegue was going to die...!!!
96) ...I am consequently pretty scared of the sea.
97)...but try to go out surf kayaking/sea kayaking and face my fears.
98) My favorite shape is a star.
99) I toyed with the idea of having the tatoo of a star on my right ankle for a long time....in memory of a friend who was obsessed with stars...
100) My nickname at work last year was "defect" because someone had listed my name under defects in the caving equipment log...and I had my moments.
101) I have dark hair but I never tan.
102) I have never used a sunbed or fake tan.
103) I fell down a cliff in turkey a few years ago and cut pretty much everywhere and gashed my arms.
104) I walked down a Turkish street covered in blood to their version of A & E in just my bikini, which was somewhat innapropriate but I wasn't thinking about that at the time.
105) I don't wear makeup unless i'm going for a proper night out even then its only eye makeup.
106) I’m useless with technology unless it is a computer.
107) Although I am considering doing an A level type thing in IT.
108) My favourite ice cream is Mint Choc Chip and always has been.
109)...but I love rasbery sorbet!
110) I can sleep anywhere.
111) I would rather wear silver or white gold, than yellow gold.
112) I once did 73 hours without sleeping when I was writing a uni essay and somehow managed to get a good grade. I had the shakes because I had so much red bull and pepsi.
113) I have my nose pierced.
114) I used to dye the end of my hair bright blue.
115) My favourite vegetables are peas; fresh or frozen.
116) I love to have me time and do things by myself.
117) I haven't watched TV by myself this year.
118) I used to wear lots of black things, clothes with stars on and spiky jewerly.
119) I miss my Grandma who died last year and I think of her everyday, I miss her more than words can say.
120) I inherited my Grandma's passion for adventure.
121) I have soo much work to do that i'm currently ignoring it.
122) My favourite perfume that I own is CKone or YvesSaintLaurent - rive gauche.
123) When I'm really stressed I close my eyes and imagine myself standing on a ledge about to jump.....
124) My bedroom is always a mess.
125) 123 is a lie....I imagine myself on one of the amazing climbs i've done, stading on a ledge, belaying a friend and gazing out at the world.
126) If I was back home and had £50 to spend on anything I liked I would....go to the lakes for the weekend and spend it on fuel, food and a few drinks in the pub...with the obvious intention of climbing all weekend... I definatly wouldn't blow it on a night out and a hangover!
127) I'm learning to spend Isle of Man money as real money, not the play money it looks like.
2) But have lived in 7 different houses/flats in 4 different regions in the past 5 years.
3) I spend my free time being active outdoors.
4) I have a mum, dad and brother.
5) I have a cat (at my parents house) who always gets in fights.
6) Our cat adopted us as a tiny kitten when he turned up on our doorstep bedraggled, flea and tick ridden just before Christmas 2002.
7) Dad got the cat fumigated at the vets and he’s now cute and cuddly.
8) My cat likes snuggling up between boobs and kneading them, there is something wrong about that!
9) My brother has moved out into his own house and we have nothing in common, except for being related.
10) I swum in a swimming club for 6 years.
11) I love driving...so maybe I have one other thing in common with my brother.
12) I was underweight when I was in college because I was paranoid I was overweight.
13) I have skiied down a mountain, drunk, holding a flaming torch.
14) I spend my evenings writing lesson plans and marking work.
15) The Isle of Man will always have a special place in my heart.
16) I'm not a morning person.
17) I don't like having lie in's past 10:30am.
18) I used to go horse riding, play piano and guitar, all of which I liked, non of which I was very good at.
19) I have been kayaking for 10 years and first paddled a kayak when I was 5, but you wouldn't think so.
20) I have been climbing for 5 years but I’m scared of falling.
21) I went to an all girls secondary modern school and hated it.
22) I am now training to be a teacher.
23) I was very shy as a kid and I still can be. I have to make myself confident.
24) I haven't had a hangover this year.
25) I want to teach first aid.
26)...but my main experiences are with breaking and dealing with myself.
27) My birth sign is Aries
28) I was born in 1986.
29) I am proud of getting myself off a mountain with a broken ankle (without mountain rescue- and only my climbing buddy).
30) Even if it did take 3 hours to decend 800 metres.
31) I studied Geology at AS Level.
32) I also went to AS Level Chemistry lessons because I wanted to learn but I wasn’t bright enough to do the exams.
33) I did AS Level Fine art for the first term until I realized I wasn’t very fine at it.
34) I studied Biology, Psychology, General Studies and Geography at A Level.
35) I would never give up climbing.
36) I love traveling.
37) I went to college in Birkenhead!
38) I know how to work the British rail system to get the cheapest fare.
39) I want an ex ambulance turned into a camper as my first vehicle.
40) I love taking photos but I need a better camera.
41) I am single and have been for 2 years.
42) I drink real ale (usually under 5%) red wine or rose.
43) I like Jennings Cumberland best. I don’t like dark Ale.
44) I don’t drink shots as I don’t like feeling drunk that quickly and don’t like paying for things I don’t like.
45) I am also partial to a bottle of corona (or sol) with lime on a warm summers evening.
46) I can't drink coctails with brilliant blue in because they make me have serious breathing issues.
47) The most beautiful place that I have ever been to is probably New Zealand.
48) ...but I was absolutly messmerised by how stunning Scotland was when I was walking there in Winter.
49) ...the Lake District also holds a special place in my heart.
50) I did a degree in Geography and got a 2.1
51) I have never lived in a city and never intend to.
52) I am currently sitting on a pile of student debt.
53) A lot of which I spent on traveling or buying climbing/kayaking/walking kit and of course alcohol and partying.
54) I worked as a lifeguard and a climbing instructor in my 2nd and 3rd year of uni.
55) I worked way too many hours at uni...but I also partied too much.
56) I am a slow reader and like reading books with pictures in.
57) I read non fiction or biographies.
58) I have a really bad short term memory and always have done.
59) I can touch my nose with my tongue.
60)I am still shocked that it cost me £3.20 for a small glass of blackcurrent and lemonade in a club last night....dearer than booze.
61) I can fit 4 5ps in my bellie button.
62) I have a really bad short term memory.
63) The only sport I watch on TV is rugby or extreme sport.
64) I hate beach holidays….I like being active; walking, climbing, kayaking, scuba diving, exploring and seeing the local culture…
65) I was brought up as Christian but now I don’t believe in God.
66) I can’t stand Big Brother.
67) I drink a lot of water every day.
68) I give blood.
69) I have hitch hiked in the Welsh Valleys and in New Zealand.
70) I could kayak before I could swim.
71) I did a sky dive when I was 17 to raise money for the Samaritans.
72) I hate spiders.
73) I used to volunteer as a "listener" for Samaritans.
74) I am 22
75) I go caving and there are spiders in caves, some of which are huge and millimeters from my face.
76) I get so scared it makes me feel sick and I scream a lot (when I am with friends, not clients)…but I love caving too much that I just have to deal with my fears.
77) I don’t own a matching pair of socks.
78) Every sport I do scares me to some degree, every sport makes me face my fears.
79) As a child I used to faint at the sight of my own blood and consequently have seen the inside of a lot of first aid rooms in public places.
80) I drink tea with the tiniest bit of milk and no sugar.
81) I’m scared of flying (possibly because I’m scared of falling) but I love traveling so just have to deal with it.
82) I love flying in helicopters which are probably aircraft most likely to fall out of the sky.
83) I can’t remember the last time I did any ironing.
84) I sing all the time, but alot more when I'm scared.
85) My colleagues used to say, my singing voice sounds like a cat being strangled.
86) I can't function without having breakfast.
87) I work in the Oxfam charity shop when I am home at my parents.
88) I broke 3 fingers when I trapped them between two railway sleepers (long story).
89) I have never done a bungee jump and never intend to.
90) I was 2 years old before I took my first steps.
91) I was 18 months old before I said my first string of words "Ooo it's hot!"
92) I climbed Moel Famau when I was 3 (with my parents).
93) I can’t stand milk, so have orange juice on my cereal.
94) My favorite colour is blue.
95) The most scared I have ever been was during the coasteering epic with work last year when I actually thought my friend/collegue was going to die...!!!
96) ...I am consequently pretty scared of the sea.
97)...but try to go out surf kayaking/sea kayaking and face my fears.
98) My favorite shape is a star.
99) I toyed with the idea of having the tatoo of a star on my right ankle for a long time....in memory of a friend who was obsessed with stars...
100) My nickname at work last year was "defect" because someone had listed my name under defects in the caving equipment log...and I had my moments.
101) I have dark hair but I never tan.
102) I have never used a sunbed or fake tan.
103) I fell down a cliff in turkey a few years ago and cut pretty much everywhere and gashed my arms.
104) I walked down a Turkish street covered in blood to their version of A & E in just my bikini, which was somewhat innapropriate but I wasn't thinking about that at the time.
105) I don't wear makeup unless i'm going for a proper night out even then its only eye makeup.
106) I’m useless with technology unless it is a computer.
107) Although I am considering doing an A level type thing in IT.
108) My favourite ice cream is Mint Choc Chip and always has been.
109)...but I love rasbery sorbet!
110) I can sleep anywhere.
111) I would rather wear silver or white gold, than yellow gold.
112) I once did 73 hours without sleeping when I was writing a uni essay and somehow managed to get a good grade. I had the shakes because I had so much red bull and pepsi.
113) I have my nose pierced.
114) I used to dye the end of my hair bright blue.
115) My favourite vegetables are peas; fresh or frozen.
116) I love to have me time and do things by myself.
117) I haven't watched TV by myself this year.
118) I used to wear lots of black things, clothes with stars on and spiky jewerly.
119) I miss my Grandma who died last year and I think of her everyday, I miss her more than words can say.
120) I inherited my Grandma's passion for adventure.
121) I have soo much work to do that i'm currently ignoring it.
122) My favourite perfume that I own is CKone or YvesSaintLaurent - rive gauche.
123) When I'm really stressed I close my eyes and imagine myself standing on a ledge about to jump.....
124) My bedroom is always a mess.
125) 123 is a lie....I imagine myself on one of the amazing climbs i've done, stading on a ledge, belaying a friend and gazing out at the world.
126) If I was back home and had £50 to spend on anything I liked I would....go to the lakes for the weekend and spend it on fuel, food and a few drinks in the pub...with the obvious intention of climbing all weekend... I definatly wouldn't blow it on a night out and a hangover!
127) I'm learning to spend Isle of Man money as real money, not the play money it looks like.
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